My love for sunflowers started when I was 8 years old. I saw one growing in the backyard. My mother said, “the seed must have followed the wind to our house.” I thought that was amazing; a sunflower seed flying in the wind and landing boldly in the center of our lawn. Throughout the summer, I saw its head raise to the sky and fall at night. I thought the sunflower was sad because the sun went away. This was hard for me to see: a bold, tall, and bright being with its head hung low.
The next week I sat at an art desk my mother bought me. I loved to draw and paint on the weekends when I wasn’t harassing my siblings. The sunflower with its head low was seared into my mind, into my heart. So I picked up my pencil and started sketching, and then I started painting. Mom walked past me after an hour and smiled.
“Why did you give the sunflower feet?” she asked. I picked up my paper with two sunflowers running toward the sun and walked to the window to look at the sunflower. Its head was high and its leaves dancing in the slight wind of the afternoon.
“This way it can chase the sun forever, mommy.” I laugh at this memory now. A child unknowingly drawing an image of herself.
I stared in the mirror one morning. I searched along the sculpted edges the universe created. For years I covered up what I thought was flawed and uninteresting. I attracted the flawed and uninteresting.
Now, I have arrived at the thought: I am all that I am. There is no one more loved than a being that loves itself.
Life is a journey, and everyone’s journey is not the same. We are taught from a young age that following one path will lead us to a life of certainty. However, anyone that has decided to read this blog is aware that life is not a one way road. Life is more like a trying mountain with dips and grooves. Maybe that path takes you higher or maybe the rocks crumble and you fall lower. Either way, the blissful feeling of reaching the top will make the journey worth it . You will look back at the years that contributed to your standing glory and realize: you had no idea what you were doing.
My blogs will begin with a journey of self, and grow into a journey shared. I believe we are placed here to learn and teach. I hope you enjoy my insights and feel free to comment!